Wow it has been awhile. School started and we have barely had time to breath! Things are going well with my pregnancy. We are having a little girl Addison Isabella Johnson. We are just trying to make it through this semester. It has been harder to go to school than I thought. I thought I would breeze through it, but it is stressful. At least time is flying by though! I can't believe it is already October. I am already 29 weeks. Crazy!
As I experience this pregnancy and feel this little life growing inside of me I am so touched by all the many blessings that I have. I am so grateful for my life and the things I get to enjoy and be blessed by. I have realized that pregnancy is hard. I knew it would be, but I have come to realize that it is all about attitude. I feel like the days that are the hardest are the days that I am being a total pill. On the days my hormones are surging and I am crying and yelling about everything I found that I have to take a break. Watch a show, read my book, lay down and take a nap, or take a warm shower. I feel much better and those around me (especially my poor husband) feel much better too!
A big help to me is working on my Hypnobabies for an hour each day. I have committed to doing the home study program. It teaches me how to relax and also put myself into deep hypnosis that will help with the birthing process as well as relaxing throughout my pregnancy! It has been a big help on retraining me to think positively about pregnancy, birth, and bringing a child into the world. I look forward to the day Addison will be born, not only because I get to finally meet her, but also because I get to experience life in such a raw intimate way. I look forward to the challenge, and pray everyday that I will be strong and willing to relax and let my body work naturally and effectively, the way God intended.
As I prepare for Addison's birth I have realized that I need to prepare in many different ways, physically, emotionally, educationally, and spiritually. I have prepared physically by trying to stay as healthy as possible. I try to eat a wide variety of foods that will give my sweet baby the best start to life. Sometimes it is really hard, and I feel discouraged. Like if I eat a sweet I feel ashamed and like I failed. I am just trying my best! I try to include a wide variety of fruits, but need to improve my veggie intake. I also try to do stretching everyday so my joints will be limber for the birth. It also helps with back pain a lot! I need to improve on stretching. I don't always do it everyday, but I have noticed a big difference on the days and nights that I do. I think it helps me sleep better and wake up easier if I stretch before bed. Another way I have tried to prepare physically for Addison's birth is by trying to avoid getting sick. I had a UTI, which I treated naturally with garlic and Doterra as well as a probiotic. I also had a sinus infection that I treated with a Neti Pot and Colloidal Silver. I try to avoid taking antibiotics unless absolutely necessary and so far this pregnancy I have been able to try other remedies with success.
Emotionally I have been able to prepare with Hypnobabies as well as positive thinking. Another big part of emotionally preparing is making sure Kirk and I are on the same page. I try to include him with my thoughts and feelings. I have found that I can trust him to take care of me when I need some encouragement and someone to just remind me that everything will be okay. I think this will be a big help during the birth. I always worry that I won't be able to let him take care of me, but he has done such an amazing job taking care of me while I am pregnant it really helps me feel secure in the fact that he will be there for me in Addison's birth! When I am feeling emotionally drained I try to slow down and take a break. I have also been trying to communicate my feelings better so that I can solve any problems that are effecting me emotionally. I can count on Kirk and my mom and sisters for this kind of encouragement.
Educationally I have prepared by doing research about the birthing process and what to expect. I have also begun preparing a birth plan that will include what I expect my birth to be like, in every situation. If I am transported, or there is an emergency. Everything! Kirk and I have also been attending forum at our midwife's house each month. These are wonderful! We learn so much and also hear birth stories that help prepare us educationally for the birth of our daughter.
I have been able to prepare spiritually by praying, attending church, reading scriptures, and talking about God's love and the gospel. I loved Conference last weekend. There were so many exceptional talks that I felt so spiritually fulfilled! Trusting in God and sharing my worries and fears with him has been a big spiritual step in preparing with Addison's birth. I know that he will protect me. I am able to get blessings when I feel discouraged or sad or sick. It is hard for me to make it to the temple, too much sitting. I get so antsy like I want to walk around and I fear I am being a distraction to others! I really want to go again before Addison gets here.I have felt like preparing spiritually, mentally, and emotionally have gone hand in hand. I can't feel complete without the other.
I have set some goals for myself. I have not always been able to keep them, but I try my best! The goals I am working on now are below.
Physically- Stretches morning and night, walk 30 minutes every day. Eating a balanced meal!
Emotionally- Write in my journal or talk with someone about the way I feel when I am feeling upset and need to work some things out. Or take a break! Using Hypnobabies for an hour each day and listening to my joyful affirmations CD.
Educationally- Keep working on my birth plan, do the research and make some more decisions.
Spiritually- Read my scriptures each day, prepare a day to go to the temple, pray morning and night or anytime I feel the need, speak to Kirk or someone else about the Gospel, and Family Scripture and pray.
These are my goals! Yay for preparing for the birth of my baby girl. I want to be the best mom I can be for her. There are so many things I need to prepare for, but even if I don't reach all of my goals I know that I am trying to do my best. I love my life. I am so grateful for my many many blessings! I am just so happy.
-Lauren
Here are some pictures from the past few weeks! Enjoy.
Kirk Taking care of me when I had my sinus infection!
Kirk reading to Addie Belle.
29 Weeks Sorry for the no make up and messy hair! It was Saturday....
Taking Life on one Day at a time!!!!
Some of my favorite quotes about Pregnancy-
"Instead of wishing away nine months of pregnancy and complaining about the shadow over my feet, I'd have cherished every minute of it and realized that the wonderment growing inside me was to be my only chance in life to assist God in a miracle." ~Erma Bombeck,("If I Had My Life to Live Over")
"There is no other organ quite like the uterus. If men had such an organ they would brag about it. So should we." ~Ina May Gaskin
"Pregnancy is a process that invites you to surrender to the unseen force behind all life." ~Judy Ford
"We repeatedly tell patients we are not in a hurry; there are no trains to catch and we don't care when the baby comes, only how! A doctor who is in a hurry does not belong in the field of obstetrics. As my chief pointed out, "An obstetrician should have a big rear end and the good sense to sit calmly there upon and let nature take its course." ~Robert A. Bradley